When the night comes

Only when the night comes

I take this gown off

Sweep the smile away

Crawl into my own skin

Just after the moon grins

The faint stars resurfaces my memory

While the clouds that carry my impenetrable pain;

Slowly fades away

I close my eyes and force sleep

Upon my heavy heart,

Only when the night comes.

PS: I write weird poems so pardon me.


you have never seen yourself

“The desire of the moth for the star,of the night for the morrow/The devotion to something a far/From the sphere of our sorrow”

Isn’t it in our nature to look for something more?From the caterpillar who wants to be the butterfly to the moth who desires for the star.I am no expert but I can think of a possible explanation.Do you know that you have never actually seen yourself?You have always seen reflections of yourself but not the actual you.You want something more because you don’t know what you actually have.Why do we want to escape the sphere of our sorrow? I have personally tried to run away from the sphere of my sorrow by shutting down people from my life.I haven’t let people into my life because I always thought that I will be the reason for their sorrow.No matter how lonely I feel It feels adequate to know that even when I burst up like a grenade there won’t be anyone near me whom I can hurt.Because nobody deserves that shit in their life.

Are Korean beauty products worth it?

In this pandemic period I have seen people experiment with different beauty products and home remedies and I am no different than that.I started watching kdrama from the early lockdown days.I have fallen in love with their skin and hair.I mean you must be kidding me,even a korean 75 year old woman has better skin than me.I have never been into self care so skin care was basically new to me.I usually used normal moisturizers and creams.But all of a sudden I got introduced to the world of toners and exfoliators.I decided to embrace the new beauty and ordered a korean toner online.I did a bit research on Korean Acewell licorice toner and finally ordered it.Korean Acewell toner has a pH level of 5.5 to effectively balance your skin.Peony extract and a high concentration of licorice water that deeply cleanses, hydrates and tones the skin all at the same time.I have been using it for 2 months and boy I am in love with this toner.I have sensitive skin that gets easily irritated just like me.I had little red spots on my face which are long gone.I am deciding to shift to korean beauty products completely.They are really life savers,but finding authentic products can be hard aswell.So make sure to check it out properly before buying.

How to use:After cleansing face and neck, pour small amount of toner onto hands or cotton pads and pat gently onto skin. Follow with sheet mask (optional recommended twice a week), essence, serum, eye cream, then a moisturizer. Deep clean and brighten your skin with this specially formulated toner!

“They Both Die at the end”

QOTD: What was the last book that gave you a heart ache?
Mine would be definitely “They Both Die At The End” this hits different everytime I read it.

“To live is the rarest thing of all”
-Oscar Wilde

They both die at the end is a book that literally gave me a heart ache.The beautiful tragedy of love and loss were depicted so beautifully.Somethings cannot be explained with mere words or emotions and this is definitely one of them.


QOTD: When did you started reading?
I started reading when I was really young. I love reading because I find comfort in it. Everytime I feel like running away I pick up a book and get lost between the lines.

Mosquitoland is a brilliant YA novel.It will sting you in all the right places. The protagonist Mim Malone finds herself in Missisipi after her parents split up.Later she learns that her mom has a mystery disease that her dad and stepmom are hiding from her. Mim then decides to travel to Clevelend where her mom was. On her journey she encounters a couple of eccentric travelling companion from all over the world.  This novel is a masterpiece by David Arnold where he boldly tackles mental illness, sexual harassment, gender identity. Mim has been an interesting narrator throughout the novel.I personally loved the way Mim painted her pain through humour

Turtles All the way down

QOTD:Do you prepare a mental note before talking to someone?
I only prepare a mental note when I am need talk to someone new.I basically speak my mind with my close friends and people but I feel like dying before talking to new people.

Turtles all the way down is one of my favourite works of John Green.The reason why I love his books are because of the relatable characters.Particularly this book was quite relatable.We are all somewhat like Aza Holmes.Our thoughts are not our choice and we don’t choose our thoughts.I have had people tell me to stop overworrying or freaking out as If it is a choice that I made.The book acknowledged such facts and presented them beautifully through the characters.It’s true that there are things that we can’t change and there are people constantly having battles with themselves and I want people to know that it’s not a choice but a mere destiny

Last Night

I remember holding hands and getting lost in the moment together but little did I know these moments are made of glass.Fragile and brittle just like our young hearts. It feels like last night when we were talking over the phone, exchanging sweet experiences.Sadly I don’t find you anymore.I loved you maybe not for forever but in the semi seconds, minutes and days and I owe you for that.But sadly I don’t find you anymore.You come to me like a gust of wind and then you slowly go away.I find you in songs and in between poetry lines.I find you in my beautiful evenings and small talks.I find you when my eyes are waving and sleep is near.But I couldn’t find you in forever so I had to let you go because you deserved forever.

It only happens in the movies

Question of the day:What was the last book that you read?

You know happy endings? The sort of endings where the heroine runs into the arms of the hero.I find it quite amusing and cinematic.I assume everything is possible in movies.Bad boys turned good,kisses in the rain,and romantic dinner.Holly Bourne’s “It only happens in the movies” is a book which points out all the cliches of movies.The story is about Audrey Winters dealing with her parents divorce and her own breakup.Audrey’s perspective about love is as interesting as it can get.She starts working at a cinema house called “Flicker” where she meets Harry.Audrey knows that Harry is every movie cliche rolled into one but she lets him into her life.As a person Audrey understands and develops a lot as a character and it was fun to see her character development.The ending of the book was really satisfying. I would give it a solid 4/5.

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